The Backwards Bride: April 2012

Wordless Wednesday

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

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Like Mother Like Daughter?

Younkins Photography

I think YES!

Top 10 Favorite Books on Monday Listicles

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

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Top 10 Favorite Books

I LOVE reading!

It's seriously one of my favorite hobbies.

For the longest time I didn't want anything to do with it... until I got pregnant.

SO!

Here are my favorites that I've read in the last 3 1/2 years in no particular order.

1. The Twilight Sage - Stephenie Meyer

Patiently waiting for the last movie to come out!

2. Sookie Stackhouse Series - Charlaine Harris

To all the True Blood fans: If you haven't read the books... you need to!

3. The Bride Quartet - Nora Roberts

I obviously read this serious during my engagement to Steve.

4. White Oleander - Janet Fitch

The book and the movie are GREAT.

5. The Shopaholic Series - Sophie Kinsella

Great reads! Loved the humor in them.

6. Remember Me? - Sophie Kinsella

FAST read.. just the way I like it.

7. My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult

What a tear jerker. I still need to watch the movie.

8. Dear John - Nicholas Sparks

I honestly liked the book better than the movie!

9. The Hunger Games Series - Suzanne Collins

A-Freaking-Mazing. The Hunger Games movie was so much like the book! I can't wait for the other two movies to come out. I think I read this series in about a month.

10. The Lucky One - Nicholas Sparks

You can't got wrong with a Nicholas Sparks book. I look forward to seeing the movie and not just because of Zac Efron... well, that's a very small reason why.

My husband asks me, "Why do you like to watch those love stories and read those kindsa books? It's not real!"

I told him...

"It keeps me loving you."

HAH!

Confessions Of An Undercover Cigarette Smoker

Thursday, April 19, 2012

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I started smoking at age 14...

It didn't turn into a full blown habit until the age of 15 when my parents separated. I pretty much got away with murder at that point.

Yes, I was a Bad Ass... or so I thought.

I had older friends so it was no problem getting a hold of cigarettes.

I started working in a pool hall at age 18 and was up to a pack a day (along with other things but that's a whole other topic for another time!)

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Years went by... life happened and then I met my husband. I could tell he wasn't a smoker... unless you got him drunk! But I kept doing my smoking thing.

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I got pregnant.

I kept smoking. I cut down a TON but didn't fully quit until the last couple of months before Briana was born.

Steve wanted me to quit, I didn't listen. After three months of maternity leave I went back to work and started up my habit again.

Just for those that don't know, I work three days a week Friday through Sunday and I'm off four days a week to be home with my babe and help out with our family business. I've never smoked around my child. I would always wait until I got to work. I've been at my job for almost seven years and it's been seven years of the same routine. When I get stressed or mad or upset... or just needing a break. Also, going out drinking is my downfall. Drinking makes me want to chain smoke like a mother f*@%$^ ! I haven't intentionally smoked in front of my husband............ unless I was wasted. Let me say, that was never good! It would totally piss him off and he just had to make himself get over it.

I've been a hidden closet smoker for almost three years now. So all in all, I'm just as bad as a parent that smokes full time around their kids. I definitely don't deserve a Mommy of the Year Award! I've never judged them (and don't plan to) and never thought I was any better.. just to clear that up!

I was even wondering if it was a bad idea or not to do a blog post. Steve's family does not know that I smoke (well some of them anyway.) At this point, I could care less since I'm trying to better myself.

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I have obviously been good at making excuses my whole life about not quitting. I promised my *baby daddy* that when we got married on March 31st I would quit. OOPS! I lied again. I waited until Friday, April 13th. That morning as I was on the way to work I thought to myself, "I have no cigarettes on me. Let's try this out."

I felt it would be smart to tell my boss, managers and the rest of the staff that way they could keep tabs on me. I'm glad I did because they were happy for me and gave me positive encouragement.

The process on that first day was literally. Painful.

I paced back and forth.

I was angry.

I even teared up a few times.

I fought with myself, telling myself that I could start the next weekend when I got back to work.

I debated on going to 711 to buy a pack.

I snapped at people... I even punched the bathroom door!

And then the day was over and I went home to my family.

I was so proud of myself!

The next day I still had reservations on quitting. BUT, it was easier then the day before.

I didn't debate with myself on going to buy a pack of smokes.

On Sunday (the third day) it was even a little bit easier.

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I have to admit, I'm nervous about going to work tomorrow.

But I have to remember how that first day felt... I don't want to go through that ever EVER again.

Nicotine has been my BFF for twelve years.

I've officially broken up with it! I knew it wouldn't go down without a fight.

But I'm ready to stop living a double life and become a more healthier person. This is the first step to making myself a better Woman. A better Mommy. A better Wifey. It can only get better from here... Right?

Maybe this year I can start workin' on that Mommy of the Year Award.

I think I could be a great candidate now.

Not So Wordless Wednesday

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

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This week has been extremely productive when it comes to picture taking!

First off, I wanted to share a picture of the new townhouse we'll be moving into next Thursday...

WAHOO! I can't wait to decorate you.

I feel like I haven't been showing off my little lady much lately with the wedding and all...

Briana and I had a wonderful play date yesterday with our friend and her cutiepatootie. Perfect weather and perfect for some picture taking! All credit goes to Younkins Photography.

My pretty babe!